I am waving it, at life right now. We are at the point where we might have to choose between electricity and water. I am job hunting right beside C, but the problem is we are afraid jobs might overlap and we have no free babysitting. On top off all that C isn’t comfortable with me having a job and the mental state I am in right now. I was exited out of the therapy program. It was only a crisis program, the ironic thing is I was exited out when it looks like I need help the most. Yes, I am still taking meds but coming up with the $45 to pay for them in 2 weeks may be a concern.
All I ever wanted as a child was to be the Maker of the Rules, now all I want it the comfort of my childhood again. It wasn’t perfect but man it was a lot easier then this. Part of me wonders if Ian will remember all this, I pray not. I know Ollie won’t but man I hate this. The option of moving somewhere else we thought we had isn’t really there.
So we are scrambling to find ways to make all our bills every month. It looks like C will work 2 jobs until he leaves for Basic. People have mentioned watching other peoples kids in the afternoon, well I don’t mine occasionally watching other kids an everyday thing isn’t for me. I am at a loss.
What I really need is to get back into therapy and truck load of money (hell I would take a job for my husband).
So if I am scarce in the next few weeks it is I don’t want to be the same dang song on repeat.
I am emotionally depleted.
Casey, the boys, and I have basically spent the past month together 24/7. Which really isn’t that different from when he is working, one would think. Well it is, I love them all but I am losing my mind. I know that I am not handling it in the best manner. I mostly want to hide in my bedroom and sleep. I haven’t worked on my bedroom project in like 6 weeks.
I feed them, change diapers, and make sure they have clean clothes. That is all I can manage some if not most days. The day I go to therapy is my favorite day of the week, it is made sure that I have time to look like a girl. Not just a mom in a tshirt and sweats.
I know we are it a time of stress, it will get easier. I need to buck up. Sorry for whining. I will resume trying to sleep now.
I wrote this on tuesday since today the fourth is my birthday and will be linking as soon as I remember.
It was a good week over all in the getting dressed department here. I am so upset at myself I forgot to take a picture of what I wore to church on Sunday it was super cute, oh well. Unlike a couple of weeks ago, it is more then one outfit in different configurations.
I started last Wednesday my first day of freedom post my little trip to the mental hospital with the best accessory ever and a cute spring outfit.
Skirt: Old Navy (shopped out of a friends closet)
Baby Carrier: Ergo (birthday gift)
Baby: My Womb
Cookie: Best Cookie ever. Bread Winners
Dress: Converse One Star (Target)
Necklace: Tardis Necklace (Time Machine Jewelry)
Hair: God Given
Glasses: Won in a Blog giveaway think eye buy direct.com
Soccer Mom Chic
Hat: Gift In College
Necklace: Montana Silver Smith’s
Home Improvement Chic
To keep it real I spent most of friday and saturday in comfy clothes painting, I will post what I have been working on in the next couple days on When did I go from a kid to a grown up?
Everything linked above I bought with my husband’s hard earned money. I link because I love the products these companies and the products that they make.
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Now, I am going to warn you that all my outfits but one are basically the same but with different accessories or configurations. That’s what happens when you go out of town with plans to spend one night and end up spending two. Sadly, I forgot to take a picture of the saturday night configuration of the outfit. It was by far my favorite with a black cardigan over the tank.
Running Errands before leaving town.
Necklace: Soleil Selene
Tank: Target (It is the Converse One Star Brand)
Watch: Fossil Outlet
I made a necklace change before leaving home friday night. This is basically the same look I rocked saturday night but with a black cardidgin and straight hair.
Pardon the over edited picture, I am new at this whole self portrait thing. This was for my family members wedding saturday morning.
Necklace: Wishbone and Four-leaf clover(it was st patty’s day)from Treasured Charms
Bracelet: Tiffany & Co.
This was saturday afternoon and coming home sunday.
Same as above all but the shoes: Steve Madden
So that is what you do when you don’t plan ahead when out of town. I wasn’t the only one without enough clothes, Ollie also ran out sunday morning. Luckily Nonnie had some extras that fit him. Yes it was just me and Ollie since Ian had his first soccer practice saturday morning.
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Everything above was purchased with my husbands hard earned money or shopped out of friends closets. If I link it is because I love not because I have too.