2016 in review

It was a rough year overall, there was lots of changes and transitions for our little family. Not all were bad though, C time in the army ended and we returned to Texas. He started a job that seems to be stable, yay! If you have been around a while you know when the economy took a crap that C’s field was a bust. (Enough about that). Things there seem to be looking up except we miss Tricare. This summer I hit a super depressed period where I was barely functioning. It took a med change to help get me out of it. And I am not ashamed of it. I need medication to function, yes function. I have a mental illness and I am not ashamed of it. The boys are both in school and seem to be enjoying it. Ian is repeating first grade and we see so much growth and maturity in him.  Ollie is flourishing in school, he was ready when he started last spring. I am glad that we waited till after we moved for him to start school. There will be more to come but I am struggling with what to share and what not to share.

Finding Joy


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Today I needed a swift kick in the butt, and this quote was just it. I woke up in a mood, along with the rest of my house. We were barely on time for out physicals. Who in their right mind accepts a 7:20 doctors appointment? That is right this girl and I take 2 kids in tow for their physicals too. After running and gunning till after lunch I finally got to sit down and relax a minute. It took me a minute to find joy in this day, but in reality it was right in front of me. So what small things didn’t you see until you took a moment to reflect on the day?

Our Morning

I was on twitter this morning lamenting that I didn’t know about what to blog about, maybe even should I kill TexasBobbi. When the lovely Emily of So Damn Domestic and Joyful Abode gave me an idea of what do blog about. She wanted to see our morning routine,  this post has been a wake up call of how I need to be more efficient.


  • 6am: Alarm goes off (Hit Snooze, this is a problem I need to get better at
  • 6:30am Finally get up out of bed and get the boys up.
  • 6:35am Breakfast Served (Frozen waffles with fruit and milk)
  • 6:45am Brush Teeth and Get Ian Dressed.
  • 6:50am Get Shoes, Jacket, and Backpack on. Start waiting for the bus
  • 6:57 Bus Arrives (Ian goes to school)
  • 7am Finally time for coffee after chugging a glass of water. While coffee is brewing go on hunt for a pair of glasses and ipad charger. Turn on Local News.
  • 7:10am sit down to drink slight cold coffee and play on ipad till C gets home from pt.
  • 8:10am C finally gets home from PT. Get a cup of tea (herbal=Decaf) and talk to C while he eats breakfast.
  • 8:45am Put Ollie in the bath.
  • 9:00am Get Ollie out of the bath (I played on my ipad while he was in the bath). Change tv to Kelly and Micheal.
  • 9:05am C leaves for work. Ollie and I watch the Kelly and Micheal until the trivia dancer.
  • 9:15am I normally get in the shower and get dressed for the day. {Today though I wrote a blog post and the rest of this post is going to be typical day}
  • 10am Start Cleaning and turn on The Price is Right (I have the tv on background noise)
  • 11:30am start lunch and wait for C to come home for lunch.

Ollie typical has a snack somewhere in there, and there is typical some time on the ipad/ playing with Ollie. I live on a loose schedule.


Random Crap I am thinking right now.

  • This time of year is tough for me, the time change and I do not get along. The first two weeks after the time change it was like the worst case of jet lag ever, it didn’t help that the boys were up by 5:15 at the latest.
  • In light of recent medication changes, I have given up even an occasional glass of wine. When all I really want is a stiff drink right meow.
  • Ian has no school at all next week, it is gonna be a looong week.
  • Casey has duty on Thanksgiving, he had it on Christmas last year. I have an unpopular opinion I will keep to myself.
  • I am nervous to go to my sister in law’s with just me and the boys.
  • I threw everything from the living room into mine Casey’s bedroom this morning before company came over, now I am writing this blog post instead of cleaning.
  • I am trying to get out of my blogging funk. After ten years, I am thinking of shutting it all down.
  • We had out Christmas tree up but Ian couldn’t leave it alone and knocked it over, so we took it down and it won’t go back up. We will have our little Texas A&M themed tree and that is it.
  • This is the first year we have had any issue with the boys messing with the tree and they are 3 & 5, what gives.
  • I am really loving Nick Jonas’s new album.
  • I am nervous and don’t really understand what to do with Advent this year.
  • I thought I knew who I was going to pick for my patron saint but I am feeling drawn other wise.

That is all the random junk on my mind now. Hopefully there will be more to come.


I have started doing the #100daysofhappiness on instagram

A few that didn’t make the cut.

So far I have had to catch up a few times but I am on Day 23, wonder if I can keep this up? I have trouble remembering some days. Does that mean that I am not having happy moments, maybe. I get overwhelmed most day, the boys seem to be in constant state of chaos or fighting. I need to make finding happiness more apart of my day.

Recent Favorites

I have been having a bad case of the winter blues along with an adverse reaction to a med causing me to be in extreme pain. Which at this point it has been going on two weeks. We have been getting a ton of snow and super cold temps (like in the negatives) and for this Texas girl that is a bit much. Though I have a few things that have been bring me some cheer even in the cold cold weather.

1: Casey let me have my Valentines gift a bit early, UGG Australia Womens Classic Tall Boot And I just love them.

I have wanted a pair for years, their here and their purple. I don't care if they aren't cool anymore, they are cool to me that's all that matters.  @chickenzie I got the purple ones!!

I have wanted a pair for years, their here and their purple. I don’t care if they aren’t cool anymore, they are cool to me that’s all that matters. @chickenzie I got the purple ones!!
2: My boys playing together makes me so happy; even if I have to say don’t hurt, headbutt, tackle, etc a million times a day.

3: I recently Discovered Clinque’s Almost Lipstick in Black Honey, it is so flattering and just so perfect.

4: Casey, who has been so supportive as this pain in the neck literally hasn’t gone away.

5: Teefury, with them having a different t-shirt everyday it is fun to discover new things and occasional get a fun new shirt.

Ch Ch Ch Changes

We are into the double digits I days left til C leaves for BCT. It is scary, I feel like time is speeding up. I can’t believe that the holidays this year mean that we will be closing in on the finish line.

I am scared, anxious, all those things when I think about it. Then I think about all the things we need to get done between now and then. Not only to make the transition easier but to make sure we have dotted all the i’s and crossed all the t’s.

Then there is the boys, how does mommy explain this. Then there is myself, how do I handle this huge new learning curve?

I do know that I love C and everything he is doing for our family.


So I need to remember to be more present with him during our time together now. To try not to take my stress out on him and to love him as much as I can.

Summer of ’04

Only a few bars had played and I was already in a different place. I could hear the breaking of pool balls in my head quickly followed with laughter at how awful my break was. How is it that one song can take me back to the summer on 04 and being 19, with no real worries. At the time my heart and mind were recovering from what I now realize is heartbreak. I filled my days with work, friends, and lots of shenanigans. That was the summer I took my first drink, subsequently my first hangover. I remember thinking that at the beginning of summer how exciting it was that all of my girlfriends and I would be in the same town again. Only to realize we weren’t the same girls who left it the fall before. Getting the sighs and dirty looks for rolling in 15 mins late to Sunday school with wet hair, and then the comment of “Bobbi you live right next door, can we try to be on time next Sunday”.

I remember lusting after guy who worked at a local ranch. Finally connecting with him to realize, that I didn’t want to be that kind of girl. Being rescued from an awkward situation by the person who you least expect because it always seemed to happen that way.

Fall rolled around again; jobs changed, classes started, and losing touch with people. Funny to think that at that time what I wanted most wasn’t that far away. I had already met him at that point.


This was much better when I was writing it in my head, in the car on the way to pick up Ollie’s smash cake.

Mud on the Tires.

Radio Silence

Well things have been quiet here, other then beat a dead horse on numerous fronts I have kept my mouth shut, well and there was some technical problems but they have been resolved.

So this post is a jumble of lots of thoughts and who knows if it will make sense (to even me).

First off, I had a long talk with my doc about my weight loss goals. He agrees diet and exercise are god for me but nothing in extremes. Which in the past i have been known to do, we discussed a realistic weight goal. I will have to kiss the idea of the new boots being paid for by my dad good bye. That weight isn’t a health ideal weight for me. I also need to figure out how to work out with both boys. Lets just say going to a gym isn’t in the cards and they need to be my work out buddies. Any ideas, I have a sit and stand stroller as the only double stroller I have.

Enough about weight, lets talk about the fact in less then a week Ollie will be a year old. I can’t believe it. He still isn’t walking and finally has one tooth starting to peek it’s way through.

Our new routine should help me prepare for the not so distance future, I am pretty sure I have mention that C leaves for BCT in Jan. Any advice from my MIL Spouse readers?

Ian’s cast comes off on Monday, a day that I can’t wait for. I feel like I have rambled enough, I more to say but maybe it won’t be so disjointed next time.

White Flag

I am waving it, at life right now. We are at the point where we might have to choose between electricity and water. I am job hunting right beside C, but the problem is we are afraid jobs might overlap and we have no free babysitting. On top off all that C isn’t comfortable with me having a job and the mental state I am in right now. I was exited out of the therapy program. It was only a crisis program, the ironic thing is I was exited out when it looks like I need help the most. Yes, I am still taking meds but coming up with the $45 to pay for them in 2 weeks may be a concern.

All I ever wanted as a child was to be the Maker of the Rules, now all I want it the comfort of my childhood again. It wasn’t perfect but man it was a lot easier then this. Part of me wonders if Ian will remember all this, I pray not. I know Ollie won’t but man I hate this. The option of moving somewhere else we thought we had isn’t really there.

So we are scrambling to find ways to make all our bills every month. It looks like C will work 2 jobs until he leaves for Basic. People have mentioned watching other peoples kids in the afternoon, well I don’t mine occasionally watching other kids an everyday thing isn’t for me. I am at a loss.

What I really need is to get back into therapy and truck load of money (hell I would take a job for my husband).

So if I am scarce in the next few weeks it is I don’t want to be the same dang song on repeat.