A Dream Realized

When I was 18, I dreamed of the day that I could get my first tattoo. I wanted my family brand surrounded by the outline of the state of Texas. Well last week I made that dream come true, it wasn’t my first tattoo but it has been a dream for nearly ten years to have it.

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Will the artist and I before we started.

I don’t know why I have always put this off, maybe it is the placement. Maybe it is what my parents are going to say about me getting another tattoo. I don’t know what held me back for so long.

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The outline, last chance to turn back

As the wrr of the gun started I took one last deep breath and let all the anxiety I was having go. I relished the pain knowing that I was doing this for me and only me. It wasn’t to please anyone else it was something I wanted for most of my adult life.

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No turning back now

Tears welled in my eyes not from pain but from the realization I am the only one who can make my dreams come true. I am the master of how my story goes. I can only be afraid of what others think to a point, I can’t let that fear keep me from living.

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Just Finished.

I left feeling like I had just done something great for myself. Maybe it is because I have lost a bit of myself with becoming a mom and wife. That is no ones fault, if anyone can be blamed it is me. I need to remember that every once in a while the woman that is Bobbi needs some attention too.

The finished product.

I then went and took myself to the movies to see “It is a good day to Die Hard”, I am so thankful for Abby and Gabe watching the boys so I could have a little time for me.

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About BadWolfBobbi

Chronic Over-sharer with Schizoaffective bipolar type. Wife, Mother, Texas Aggie, Whovian.
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8 Responses to A Dream Realized

  1. Good for you for living out your dream! Life’s too short to regret the things you didn’t do….. 🙂

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  2. Abigail says:

    I really love it. It’s bold and simple at the same time. Glad you finally got your dream tattoo.

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    • Bobbi says:

      Me too, if I can ever decide what I want to symbolize my family I will get that on my side. I have thought about a tree with 4 birds and bird flying away(the baby we lost), but the cost of that is so high.

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  3. AH!! LOVE it!!! Looks great and awesome idea!!

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  4. momstheword says:

    I don’t have any tattoos at all, but I come from a family with lots of them, lol! All my brothers have tattoos (although my sisters don’t), and even my mom and dad have tattoos. Well, my dad had a lot but my mom only has one.

    I guess I’m just not a tat person. My friend’s daughter has five of them and she’s sort of done what you did, expressed herself by designing her own. I’ve heard that they aren’t very painful, would you agree?

    I know sometimes it feels like you have lost a part of yourself when you become a wife and a mother. I remember one point feeling sort of like “This is it?”

    I loved my baby but I had come from a job where I was greatly appreciated and got a lot of positive feedback, plus it was a job where I had several people under me and I really could undertake a difficult task and tackle it and it was satisfying. (It was also very stressful, lol!)

    Eventually I learned that I could get the same level of challenge and pride in my task and satisfaction just by learning to cook a new recipe or organizing a closet or just by managing to keep a grumpy baby happy.

    It sounds simplistic but I really did (and have) managed to find joy in raising my kids, working around my home and learning new things. I am sure you have too.

    Moms just need to remember to recharge when you can, and take time to do things that THEY enjoy doing when they can! 🙂

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    • Bobbi says:

      Thank you for taking the time to comment. You are exactly right it is taking the time to remember that woman underneath every once in a while. I love being a wife and mom, and I get joy from those roles. No it didn’t hurt, but I have had two babies 😉 it is more of an annoying irritant then anything.

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