Today was a rough day here, Ollie is still in the throws of the never ending cold. I couldn’t even do the dishes with out him screaming. At one point it got so bad that I took the neighbor up on her offer to take him, I needed to do the dishes with out being screamed at the whole time. Where was Ian you ask? He was being great playing cars and being helpful which means any day now we are do for a bad day the two of us. This parenting two kids stuff is hard, most days I don’t feel as if I am failing to show both boys the attention they need. How can I gain a balance? I feel like Ian is getting the shaft most days, I don’t want that for him. I want him to thrive and feel loved. I know that sleep deprivation is part of why I am feeling like this(yes I know I am writing this at one am). That is what happens when you haven’t been sleeping due to calming your cough sick baby.
Part of me wonders are these thoughts because I have had no choice but to wean of my medication due to having no insurance. Which means no way to go to the doctor to get a new prescription and the cost of filling them each month. When did it become a choice to have health insurance for me or pay an important bill. I don’t think I mentioned this before but for us to have insurance through C’s work it would be $800 for the boys and I. That is insane, luckily they qualify for state aid still (even if it is a broken system). What happens to us who are left with out the option of aid and is afraid because of their history private insurance would be just as much?
Don’t miss any of Bobbi Babbles crazy antics.Don’t forget to ask yourself “When did I go from a Kid to a Grown Up?”